Sophia Revealed

   Sophia, the goddess behind what we call mother Earth. A great cosmic force of creation that has become trapped in a dream she herself has created. If you want more details I suggest looking into John Lamb Lash. He has been uncovering what he believes to be some of Earths true history by interpreting Gnostic texts. Namely what has become known as the Dead Sea Scrolls I believe. I found his information to be intriguing to say the least.

   This is especially true with what are known as the Archons. They are the gatekeepers of our collective dreaming. They are said to have two forms. One is reptilian and the other is what is described as looking like an aborted fetus with large eyes.  Sound familiar to anyone who has even remotely studied the UFO phenomenon? They have high jacked our reality some time ago. Now I am not saying everything that people have seen as UFOs or that every being someone has described as otherworldly are these Archons, however the possibility of their existing is worth considering. Mainly because if what is said of them is true then we are in fact farm animals that have been harvested for the vast amounts of energy we produce when in certain states of overwhelming emotion. It is said they feed off of us like parasites. That they influence certain people by invading their very thoughts and causing them to wreak havoc and then "harvest" the energy that is released thereon into the Ether so to speak. Or perhaps even induce entire populations to have certain thought streams that produce fear and anxiety, especially in respect to sex.

   Sex is one of the ultimate expressions of creation if not the ultimate as far as our level of awareness is concerned anyway. So what has been done with this amazing and wonderful gift? It is either suppressed causing imbalance or it is indulged with no regaurd with the profound impact it has on the people involved causing imbalance. Either way there tends to be a predator prey relationship (think of what 50 shades of grey books are probably about). Now I am not one to tell anyone how they should behave if everyone involved is willing and no one is hurt. However this type of relationship in varying degrees seems to dominate(pardon the pun) pretty much the world over. This I believe is merely a symptom of a much larger psycholigcal/spritual problem.

   Now I have been told that the concept of Archons is merely a way of scapegoating aspects of humanity that are unfavorable. I must say I do not think it is an excuse for bad behavior by any stretch, we are all ultimately responsible for our own actions. The law of freewill dictates as much. There is always a choice. We can consider however where these choices are coming from. Where does the very idea of needing to dominate stem from? More on this later perhaps.

 
  

BATHTUB MEDITATIONS

Lately I have been conducting what I call my bathtub meditations. I turn on the hot water and when I say hot, I mean that I make it as friggn' hot as my body can withstand. I then submerse myself as much as I can and try different breathing techniques. Sometimes I sit up; all different kinds of things until I start getting the results I desire. This is of course connecting with my higher-self or whatever term you wish. Oh I also use a chunk of quartz crystal that I found in my house to help me tune in. I'm not sure where I got it exactly but it seems like I might have picked it up on a trip to Colorado Springs years ago and just forgot about it.

   Anyway I hold the quartz in my hand often switching from one to the other changing the way I hold it until it "feels right". Well I have to say for my at least this is a powerful way to tune into the energies around me. A word of caution though, if you are not practiced at meditating and focusing your mind (which I am not) this can be an intense experience. Sometimes negative emotions and thoughts surface which brings me to something else I want to say.

   For any of those out there that have thoughts of "ending it" and feel like they just can't handle the negativity of the world and their own thoughts, I have this to say. Stay with that pain. Work it out in your mind and your heart. Don't push it away or push it down. It doesn't go away, so just let it come and when you feel like you can't take it any longer ask for more. You are capable of so much more than you think is possible and the first thing to overcome is also sometimes the hardest. The idea of your own limitation. Trust me this is something of which I am very familiar.

   Now I would like to relate one of the messages I have gotten since doing these meditations. Sometimes it is so much all at once I can scarce remember all of it. However I know these positive messages are remembered deep inside replacing all of the self defeating, fear base thoughts that have been locked inside over the past 30 years. of my life. So here it is.

   The first thing that comes to my mind is that chaos tears things apart right? Well chaos also tears itself apart; there is no such thing as organized chaos. This is one of the reasons that the elite can not win. It's really funny if you think about it. I cracked up when this came into my head. Now I know some of you may say well there are the negative ET's that have been that way for eons. Why haven't they destroyed themselves yet?

   The answer is this; they do not have the creative potential we in these human bodies possess. We in these little "unevolved" 3 dimensional bodies can connect with primordial, universal energies like no other. We are a mix of different races and have potential never before seen in this galaxy. There is a cosmic game being played here on this planet. It is a microcosm of the greater galactic conflict. Earth is a startegic battle ground holding many resources and a powerful weapon;us. The funny thing is we are such powerful conduits for these energies that even if the negative ET's won total control of us they would still lose. We would embody the gods of death and destruction to a point of becoming a swirling blackhole of chaos, taking those poor foolish bastards with us; probably many others besides. This will not be allowed to happen.

mr. PANTAGES

Mr. Pantages walks through the ages never giving up on human graces. Of evolution he's watched the stages.
One after the other has has seen empires rise and fall. He's seen Sumer,Babylon,Persia,Greek and Rome;he's seen them all.
There isn't much he hasn't been through. If you say "It's the END!" He'll shrug and smile. "If you only knew that there's nothing new."
If you scream "Oh my God the antichrist has come! "He'll laugh slapping his knee and say "Ha-ha well the first time I did run but again my child I say it's all been done!"
"You see fear is from that which you do not know. Ignorance is the string which bends Fears loathesome, ebony bow."
"This is what is important for you to remember; that what you bake is what you make and what you make had better be bread. What you don't make is what is fake and what is fake will certainly leave you dead. Dead is dead, no more bread."
That is the way he is in all things, he lets truth bring what truth brings and all other things are just that; things.
Make no mistake though he has no vested interest in you. For what are you but nothing new?
He's seen your face before and he's heard your questions before, so it does no good for you to implore. You will not get what you came for.

He exclaims. "There is one grace I have never known and that is Death! I long for her like a soldier longs for his lover breath."
"It is the only fear and enticing experience I have left to suffer for. I know not how to meet her embrace, call her name or ever open her boney damp door."
"So you see it is I that you should feel empathy for. It's not the whore bleeding in the street and not the child looking for something to eat. They will find sson enough what I shall never have but only adore,adore and adore, forevermore."

GHOSTLY COMPANION

   I am going to talk about my ghostly companion. I don't care who see this I need to tell someone, so I will speak it to the wind so to speak. Since my "activation" a couple of months ago now I seem to be in contact with something. I am still diseminating who or what it is exactly but it is like a guiding voice that seems to come from the back of my skull where the skull meets the spinal column. Now a psychologist might say it is my subconciouse. A mystic might say it is my higher-self. Some may even  say it is a being that hails from another star system or indeed another dimension. Finally others would probably say I am making it all up to make my self feel important. As far as that last one goes all I can say is if that is true I am not doing it conciously.

   This voice is usually playful. It is never angry or judgmental in anyway. The funny thing too is when I am having a conversation with this voice inside my head; little synchronostic things pop up. It could be a song on the radio I hear as I pass by it or a set of numbers from any number of places. Sometimes it is even actual "signs" if you like. On the side of a vehicle or on a billboard. These things that pop up usually have some fairly direct meaning or referencce to what I am thinking when I see it or hear it. At first I was alarmed. Like am I going crazy? Is it real? If it is real then what the hell does that mean about the reality we think we're living in? Now "crazy" people don't tend to wonder if they're crazy; they just are. I don't think I am but I am open to the possibility and that may be the thing that saves me from going over the deep end,HA!

   If this is real and our reality is much more pliable than we might imagine what do we do with that? Manifest abundance? Save the World? Manifesting abundance is fine but what then? Also for those that think that manifesting abundance doesn't affect others I say just look at the wealthy people of the world. I am sure they know abundance; do you not think their abundance is having perhaps a negative consequence on the world? Yes the Universe is infinite but it is also fractured, cut up into an infinite number of smaller pieces. Our conciouness lives in a limited reality and therefore limited energy field. I think this manifesting your reality shit has been released to cause chaos. Everyone pulling on the energy field at the same time for seflish,self serving reasons.

   Then on the other hand is saving the world. How do we do that? Send positive messages to others using our thoughts? What if the person is an asshole and we don't know it? All of a sudden they get this rush of happy feelings or whatever after doing something terrible and we just helped out a negative person. Maybe we send thoughts to heal mother earth? Well what if mother earth would feel much better if your fucking house was torn to shit by a tornado?

   Look, I am not trying to be a downer and piss on the parade of those trying to exist of light and love but I just have been wondering about these things. Our minds are powerful things and cosmic energy is not something to take lightly. Sometimes I just wonder if we aren't like little children playing with high voltage elctricty not really knowing what the consequnces are. I think people are trying to get ahead of themselves with this cool and probably totally true revelation about how our minds are connected to the world around us. I think we should concentrate on bettering ourselves inside before worrying about anything "external"

   I realize I am getting off track since I began this post by talking about the voice in my head but I have a feeling that it/he/she/me would like this to be the thought of the day today and I'll get back to figuring out the nature of the voice itself some other time.

PEACE,LOVE,INFORMATION